First time I've blogged in like 3 years, this feels so surreal. I've just really felt to start blogging again just to get some thoughts down as a release to myself. Lately a lot of things have happened and I have caused a lot of hurt and frustration to the people closest to me. Tonight after seeing and praying with a friend I felt heavily convicted hence this post.

As the body of Christ, we are called to live in community with one another. The idea of people watching us or knowing about the sin in our lives can often make us feel uncomfortable. Being known by others and being held accountable is necessary however, not only to meet our basic relationship needs, but also to afford us a measure of safety from the enemy’s devices.

Ananias and Sapphira had a well-known problem. They lied about giving all the proceeds from the sale of their property to the church. Judgment came because they pretended to be something they weren’t. Playing a role to imitate the sincerity of those around them (Acts 4:34-37), they forgot that God knows the true condition of our hearts (Proverbs 24:12).

Believers who take seriously the presence of the Holy Spirit living in them recognize the following:

Transparency means…

• Pursuing “holiness and sincerity in all our dealings” (2 Corinthians 1:12).

• Being honest with others about where we are spiritually (Ephesians 4:25).

• A willingness to be admonished by those who love us (Proverbs 27:6).

Tinted windows may keep our cars cooler by allaying the sweltering summer heat, but tinted lives leave us open to the enemy.

Don't even know anymore but whatever....God help me

It ain't easy but its gonna be worth it

It's been a very long while since my last blog post but been so busy with life but now kinda realised that I gotta slow down my busyness has been affecting my health,emotions and just my general well-being. Life is ok I suppose if anything it feels as though I'm climbing a mountain got so many things on at the moment and trying to juggle things and please people fails you just end up making things worse that your trying to sort out, If anything the best I've realised and it hit me last night at like 3:17 this morning is the only person you should be worried about pleasing is God. You please him you please everyone. For me personally I really feel I've slipped when it comes to certain situations and if I'm honest I feel like what is the point but just reading the story of Paul and other disciples how the stuff they went through just built up their character and how they kept persevering through everything gives me a hope. One of the most difficult parts of the Christian life is the fact that becoming a disciple of Christ does not make us immune to life’s trials and tribulations. Why would a good and loving God allow us to go through such things as the death of a child, disease and injury to ourselves and our loved ones, financial hardships, worry and fear? Surely, if He loved us, He would take all these things away from us. After all, doesn’t loving us mean He wants our lives to be easy and comfortable? Well, no, it doesn’t. The Bible clearly teaches that God loves those who are His children and He “works all things together for good” for us (Romans 8:28). So that must mean that the trials and tribulations He allows in our lives are part of the working together of all things for good. Therefore, for the believer, all trials and tribulations must have a divine purpose.

As in all things, God’s ultimate purpose for us is to grow more and more into the image of His Son (Romans 8:29). This is the goal of the Christian, and everything in life, including the trials and tribulations, is designed to enable us to reach that goal. It is part of the process of sanctification; that is, being set apart for God’s purposes and fitted to live for His glory. The way the trials accomplish this is explained in 1 Peter 1:6-7: "In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which perishes, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." The true believer’s faith will be made sure by the trials we experience so that we can rest in the knowledge that it is real and will last forever.

Trials develop godly character, and that enables us to "rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us” (Romans 5:3-5). Jesus Christ set the perfect example. "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8). These verses point out aspects of His divine purpose for both Jesus Christ's trials and tribulations and ours. Persevering proves our faith. "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13).

At the same time, we must be careful never to make excuses for our "trials and tribulations" if they are a result of our own wrongdoing. "By no means let any of you suffer as a murderer, or thief, or evildoer, or a troublesome meddler" (1 Peter 4:15). God will forgive our sins because the eternal punishment for them has been paid by Christ’s sacrifice on the cross. However, we still have to suffer the natural consequences in this life for our sins and bad choices. But God uses even those sufferings to mold and shape us for His purposes and our ultimate good.

Trials and tribulations come with both a purpose and a reward. "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to those who love Him" (James 1:2-4,12).

Through all of life’s trials and tribulations, we have the victory. "But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord, Jesus Christ." These verses encourage us to see that although we are in a spiritual battle, Satan has no authority over the believer in Christ. God has given us His Word to guide us, His Holy Spirit to enable us, and the privilege of coming to Him anywhere, at any time, to pray about anything. He has also assured us that no trial will test us beyond our ability to bear it, and “he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it” (1 Corinthians 10:13).

I'm Moving Forward

Wow it's been a while since I've been on here and I now I feel I'm ready to blog again. The last couple of months have been a bit of blur like Woah!! have they flown by and honestly I can't believe how much has happened. For the last couple of months I've been in the wilderness with God and at times it's been very hard but I now know its happened for a reason. In this period God taught me to persevere during the really tough times but also to let go of the past and look forward to the future I have in him. I've been 20 for two weeks now and I've really just been reflecting on my life and looking ahead. For me a lot has happened to me this year that has left feeling very broken at times but thinking about sometimes when God has big plans for you he has to put you through some stuff and leave you feeling broken before putting his foundations in you and building you up to be all that He made you to be. The next 10 years of my life are going to very important in every aspect of life but I know just based on this year alone that no matter what happens I will be with Jesus every step of the way.

The Journey is not easy

At the moment life should be brilliant but it's not. Like I'm studying music and it's pretty much like one massive jam because all the best musicians and singer doing my course are christian so its just a brilliant environment to be in. I'm also signed to a football club on a youth development contract and its going very well and from that got several big clubs interested in me. Last week Saturday I got injured playing football within 15mins of the match. I sustained ligament damage in my right ankle after a nasty challenge. I've felt very handicapped since like I can't walk well without being in pain, running is a definite No. Yesterday I had a very crap day like nothing happened but I just wanted to hide away and just felt so low so I stayed in half the day and cried in bed I didn't answer or text anyone of my phone just let it ring or whatever was going on. Today Ive just been thinking "Soly whats up dude?" and just been thinking why I feel like this. Here's the thing I've realised having this injury hampered my ability to do stuff like I can walk but not very well, if I tried to run I would be in a lot of pain and not run very well and I think its the story of my life at the moment like things might be great in some areas but there's a real handicap in one area which is affecting me in general and just making me internally struggle and feel very lost inside the deep wells of emotions and thoughts. I'm finding it very hard too like just the mood swings and the last 48 hours have kinda been like the hardest but today while heading home I was listening to How He Loves Us the Jesus Culture version and I was reminded of God love for me and I'm going to hold on to that love with all I've got as somehow that I will never understand God works all things to the good of those who love him.

What life I have in Christ

The last 6 -7 weeks of my life have been a bit of blur with my emotions flying all over the place and just not knowing to do with myself and everything I was carrying emotionally and mentally. Everything changed about a week and a half ago. I went to Newday (a youth conference run by New Frontiers) feeling very dry in everyway you can feel dry as a christian and if I'm honest the only reason I went was because I actually couldn't say no to the people who asked me to go (You know who you are). Throughout the week not only did I meet more people but started to patch somethings with people too. Newday was a very emotion week for me and I have never cried so much in one week in all my life. A few things happened that angered me and at one point I thought "What's the point? I want to go home" but then I remember as I was packing all my stuff away It hit me why I was at Newday. It was to meet powerfully with God and I remember just saying in to myself  "I'm not here for no man, I'm here to meet with God and no one is stopping that". With that firmly in my heart and now my new attitude It went on to be an amazing week. Since then I now kinda know what I'm doing for the next year at least. Football has kind off come back on to the scene which is totally random but cool and I'm just awaiting my audition date for my Degree course but its all taking shape and I can say honestly the Best us yet to come in the World of Solomon Douglas.

Welcome to my new blog

Hi there and welcome to my new improved blog. I deleted the old one as it was just very messy design wise and I wasn't to happy with it anyway. I thought with this blog I will do a lot more than just pour out my thoughts and stuff but I will do a whole lot more.
The purpose of this 1st post was just to welcome back previous followers and just give a brief testimony of my life up to this very point in time.
I was born in a God fearing family, My Mum was an Orthodox Jew and Dad always believed there was a God but lived his own way looking after me and my Mum and also my little sister Sarah when she was born in 1997. From what my Mum says she started going to Church in 1990 looking for God after my childminder who was a devote Christian told her about the whole Toronto Blessing stuff. So from then she pretty much started going to Kings Church Catford. It wasn't till 1997 when she gave her life to Christ and had been Baptized that my walk with God started. Pretty much all I knew was Sunday was going to church and what not and getting sweets and seeing friends but in the summer of 1998 that changed. For a couple of years Mum began to rally the whole family to go to a Bible week called Stoneleigh and we would go and come back but for me being a kid it was just like all fun. But that particular summer I met with God in a ministry time and encountered the Holy Spirit for the 1st time and received the gift of Tongues (it was only one word but hey I was over the moon) and I remember just feeling I know God. As I grew older all of that was out to one side and it was all about being cool and stuff. By the time I was 12 I was playing Sunday league football and thought church was for losers and old people. By the time I was 14 I had been scouted and was now playing club football and because of that I developed a very bad attitude towards my parents and in general I just wasn't cool like I thought I was the man and had the whole "gangsta" attitude. In 2004 my Mum thought I would be good for me to go away to Newday (Newday is an annual Christian youth festival organized by the Newfrontiers family of churches) that year. I pretty much thought "Ok whatever "and went in the week with that attitude and it wasn't till one of the youth leaders that I thought was cool persuaded me to go to an evening meeting that God just began to take all of attitude and my so called coolness and begun a work in in me. Just to put it so you can picture I walked into the evening meeting thinking "Im the man"  and walked out all red eyed,snotty nosed and quiet just in awe of God.
From then over time I begun to change I dropped the attitude and what not. Took up bass guitar which was very random but awesome. In 2006 I was diagnosed with Achalasia which is a rare disease of the muscle of the esophagus. This meant I couldn't eat with out throwing it all back up and I ended up begin is hospital for 4 and a half months. There were several times I thought I was gonna die and stuff and that was it but ended up having an operation and just feeling very low and what not till February 2007 where on the youth weekend away God broke in restored me emotionally. Life was awesome that year got baptized on June the 17th that year which is one of the highlights in my life. Round that time to started athletics just running the 100m which was cool and that was beginning to take of even though I was still pursing a football career with the old club I was playing for. 2008 was a tough year especially from the April of that year loads of things just got me in to a very depressed state and I was just in that pit tried to overdose but failed but in the November of that year while playing bass at a prayer meeting I cried out to God and I remember just the relief after of just feeling that a burden had been taken. 
 2009 was an awesome year thinking about it I gave up chasing the football dream and God gave me his plans through several prophetic words and what not which was cool. There were several challenges presented in the form of relational stuff with friends which is still going on today but just seeing His work in me like giving me the ability to learn piano and acoustic guitar supernaturally and just other things He has done for me gives me faith to carry on even though half the time I don't know what going on He does so I just hold on to that truth and journey on.