First time I've blogged in like 3 years, this feels so surreal. I've just really felt to start blogging again just to get some thoughts down as a release to myself. Lately a lot of things have happened and I have caused a lot of hurt and frustration to the people closest to me. Tonight after seeing and praying with a friend I felt heavily convicted hence this post.

As the body of Christ, we are called to live in community with one another. The idea of people watching us or knowing about the sin in our lives can often make us feel uncomfortable. Being known by others and being held accountable is necessary however, not only to meet our basic relationship needs, but also to afford us a measure of safety from the enemy’s devices.

Ananias and Sapphira had a well-known problem. They lied about giving all the proceeds from the sale of their property to the church. Judgment came because they pretended to be something they weren’t. Playing a role to imitate the sincerity of those around them (Acts 4:34-37), they forgot that God knows the true condition of our hearts (Proverbs 24:12).

Believers who take seriously the presence of the Holy Spirit living in them recognize the following:

Transparency means…

• Pursuing “holiness and sincerity in all our dealings” (2 Corinthians 1:12).

• Being honest with others about where we are spiritually (Ephesians 4:25).

• A willingness to be admonished by those who love us (Proverbs 27:6).

Tinted windows may keep our cars cooler by allaying the sweltering summer heat, but tinted lives leave us open to the enemy.

Don't even know anymore but whatever....God help me

It ain't easy but its gonna be worth it

It's been a very long while since my last blog post but been so busy with life but now kinda realised that I gotta slow down my busyness has been affecting my health,emotions and just my general well-being. Life is ok I suppose if anything it feels as though I'm climbing a mountain got so many things on at the moment and trying to juggle things and please people fails you just end up making things worse that your trying to sort out, If anything the best I've realised and it hit me last night at like 3:17 this morning is the only person you should be worried about pleasing is God. You please him you please everyone. For me personally I really feel I've slipped when it comes to certain situations and if I'm honest I feel like what is the point but just reading the story of Paul and other disciples how the stuff they went through just built up their character and how they kept persevering through everything gives me a hope. One of the most difficult parts of the Christian life is the fact that becoming a disciple of Christ does not make us immune to life’s trials and tribulations. Why would a good and loving God allow us to go through such things as the death of a child, disease and injury to ourselves and our loved ones, financial hardships, worry and fear? Surely, if He loved us, He would take all these things away from us. After all, doesn’t loving us mean He wants our lives to be easy and comfortable? Well, no, it doesn’t. The Bible clearly teaches that God loves those who are His children and He “works all things together for good” for us (Romans 8:28). So that must mean that the trials and tribulations He allows in our lives are part of the working together of all things for good. Therefore, for the believer, all trials and tribulations must have a divine purpose.

As in all things, God’s ultimate purpose for us is to grow more and more into the image of His Son (Romans 8:29). This is the goal of the Christian, and everything in life, including the trials and tribulations, is designed to enable us to reach that goal. It is part of the process of sanctification; that is, being set apart for God’s purposes and fitted to live for His glory. The way the trials accomplish this is explained in 1 Peter 1:6-7: "In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which perishes, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." The true believer’s faith will be made sure by the trials we experience so that we can rest in the knowledge that it is real and will last forever.

Trials develop godly character, and that enables us to "rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us” (Romans 5:3-5). Jesus Christ set the perfect example. "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8). These verses point out aspects of His divine purpose for both Jesus Christ's trials and tribulations and ours. Persevering proves our faith. "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13).

At the same time, we must be careful never to make excuses for our "trials and tribulations" if they are a result of our own wrongdoing. "By no means let any of you suffer as a murderer, or thief, or evildoer, or a troublesome meddler" (1 Peter 4:15). God will forgive our sins because the eternal punishment for them has been paid by Christ’s sacrifice on the cross. However, we still have to suffer the natural consequences in this life for our sins and bad choices. But God uses even those sufferings to mold and shape us for His purposes and our ultimate good.

Trials and tribulations come with both a purpose and a reward. "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to those who love Him" (James 1:2-4,12).

Through all of life’s trials and tribulations, we have the victory. "But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord, Jesus Christ." These verses encourage us to see that although we are in a spiritual battle, Satan has no authority over the believer in Christ. God has given us His Word to guide us, His Holy Spirit to enable us, and the privilege of coming to Him anywhere, at any time, to pray about anything. He has also assured us that no trial will test us beyond our ability to bear it, and “he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it” (1 Corinthians 10:13).

I'm Moving Forward

Wow it's been a while since I've been on here and I now I feel I'm ready to blog again. The last couple of months have been a bit of blur like Woah!! have they flown by and honestly I can't believe how much has happened. For the last couple of months I've been in the wilderness with God and at times it's been very hard but I now know its happened for a reason. In this period God taught me to persevere during the really tough times but also to let go of the past and look forward to the future I have in him. I've been 20 for two weeks now and I've really just been reflecting on my life and looking ahead. For me a lot has happened to me this year that has left feeling very broken at times but thinking about sometimes when God has big plans for you he has to put you through some stuff and leave you feeling broken before putting his foundations in you and building you up to be all that He made you to be. The next 10 years of my life are going to very important in every aspect of life but I know just based on this year alone that no matter what happens I will be with Jesus every step of the way.

What life I have in Christ

The last 6 -7 weeks of my life have been a bit of blur with my emotions flying all over the place and just not knowing to do with myself and everything I was carrying emotionally and mentally. Everything changed about a week and a half ago. I went to Newday (a youth conference run by New Frontiers) feeling very dry in everyway you can feel dry as a christian and if I'm honest the only reason I went was because I actually couldn't say no to the people who asked me to go (You know who you are). Throughout the week not only did I meet more people but started to patch somethings with people too. Newday was a very emotion week for me and I have never cried so much in one week in all my life. A few things happened that angered me and at one point I thought "What's the point? I want to go home" but then I remember as I was packing all my stuff away It hit me why I was at Newday. It was to meet powerfully with God and I remember just saying in to myself  "I'm not here for no man, I'm here to meet with God and no one is stopping that". With that firmly in my heart and now my new attitude It went on to be an amazing week. Since then I now kinda know what I'm doing for the next year at least. Football has kind off come back on to the scene which is totally random but cool and I'm just awaiting my audition date for my Degree course but its all taking shape and I can say honestly the Best us yet to come in the World of Solomon Douglas.

His Love Endures

 

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor. For if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion. But woe to the one who falls when there is not another to lift him up.

Furthermore, if two lie down together they keep warm, but how can one be warm alone?
And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A cord of three strands is not quickly torn apart.


Ruth 1:16-17
But Ruth said, "Do not urge me to leave you or turn back from following you; for where you go, I will go, and where you lodge, I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God, my God.

"Where you die, I will die, and there I will be buried. Thus may the LORD do to me, and worse, if anything but death parts you and me."


I Corinthians 13:1-13
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


I John 4:7-19
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love. By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.

Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has seen God at any time; if we love one another, God abides in us, and His love is perfected in us. By this we know that we abide in Him and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. We have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God.

We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. By this, love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; because as He is, so also are we in this world.There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.

We love, because He first loved us.

Faith, Hope, and Love

The last the couple of week and a bit of my life have been a bit of a blur due to it just been completely covered in emotion. It wasn't till Monday on the way home from the Thanksgiving Service for my dear friend that passed away that I began to process everything that had happened in the last 3weeks (Just want to thank The Kerith Centre for catering for all the Fpers and just for an emotional but amazing day.) Since Monday there has really been a sense of hope in me like I still go through the emotional stuff which is expected but It's all in Gods hands. For a while now God has been teaching me how to love unconditionally no matter what was going on but just to love others as God loves us. For me it's been a massive challenge during this Fp year as I've been through so many relational difficulties which resulted with me walking away from a lot of people and just feeling very bitter. Since going to Mobilise (A New Frontiers Student and Twenties conference which is just really awesome (click here to see a few highlights of the conference this year. Might see a few familar faces hehe) God really begun to heal some of the open wounds and help me to get over a lot of the bitterness. I was really reminded of the work God was doing in me with all the hurt just going to watch Toy Story 3 with a bunch of Fpers earlier this week. It was an amazing film like Toy Story has always been one of my favourite films when on a lazy day just pigging out on Ben and Jerry's (aaahhh soo yummy!!!). The thing that really stood out to me was no matter what happened they were all in it together no matter what faced them and at times even went out of there way for one another (don't want to give the storyline away but it is a must see film trust me seen it 3 times so SICK!!). Even after getting home and talking to my Mum about the film she laid down a challenge by saying "Sol its good that your really getting what a strong Christian community is, but what about those closer to home".  I couldn't answer had nothing to that just walked up to my deep in thought and just said the one prayer I've Prayed so much which is "God you know.  I can honestly say my faith is now firmly routed for example last night I thought I'm going to go to a half night of prayer which I just got blown away at some the things that were said through other people just confirming stuff I've already heard before. Just to finish I can say is that I'm the one verse thats been on my heart is 1 Corinthians 13 verse 13 which reads;

  

So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

I've shared this gem of a scripture with a lot of people and just whats God has challenged me with and it has blessed a lot of people to the point a friend put it as his Facebook status. I don't know what God's doing but he is in control and I'm gonna just see how it all pans out because all I know is I find rest in Him.

God...........................I Just got to trust you

As I write this post I cry. This time last week I had just got to Wales to have a week of fun and rest with my Fp base after a long and intense year. By the end of the week I lost a dear friend and another was and still is in a critical state in hospital. For me physically I'm sore got bruising,cuts and other bits of physical damage but the emotional pain I feel is of a different level to anything I have ever experienced.

Since I've got back to London all I've been doing is questioning and shouted at God like "Why God, you gave her promises over her life and you took her, you know what you should have taken me what would have been the difference but you took her. When it was your best mate you brought him back to life!" I just felt angry and bitter began to question and say "Where is God in all this?". Then yesterday it hit me on the train to Kingston. I am Human, God is God its a done deal like there is no need to try and understand what God's reason for letting things happen only He is knows. Since then I just felt clueless on what to do and just began to cry and think "What is the point like I can't understand" but God does and I just got to hold on to him with everything I've got. As a musician I've been twiddling around on a lot instruments because I just want to process the way I feel, a way I can glorify God in this moment and a way my dear friend can be remembered. I remembered the song "How He Loves Us" that was written by John Mark McMillan but rose to fame by Jesus Culture. He too like me lost a dear friend in a car crash and felt disillusioned and angry but he gave it to God and in the that dark time he wrote the song. I can feel a song in me but I'm laying it down, God I'm trusting in you.

It's a New Season

I feel as though there is a new season about to birthed in my life like I'm moving into a season of Just an amazing time with God. This week I was down in Brighton for a conference called Together on a mission which splits down into the Leadership side of the conference for Church leaders etc and Mobilise which is for Students and is what I went to.

I went into the week feeling its going to another conference but if anything I looking forward to getting away from London and just wanting to reflect on life and stuff but man did I meet with God. On the very first night in the main session Terry Virgo done an amazing talk and practically it felt like I was sitting in a room by myself and he was talking directly to me. He talked about hurt and pain that you get in Church life and some people are even on the verge of leaving. He called a response at the end and I went forward and stuff and as I got prayed for I just began to cry like nothing like I had been holding on to a lot of stuff that had happened in the past and like in that moment I knew I had to forgive so crying my eyes out and all snotty nosed (and still looking cool) I began to forgive and let go of stuff. After starting the week on that note the following days were about learning to trust God and just soaking in His presence, dancing like King David in worship times and enjoying fellowship with people and meeting new people. But for me the biggest thing at conference was what God said to me which I will mention later in this place.

Since getting back I've been looking at myself and just thinking about my life and just seeing what God is doing. Two things I've noticed is that for a good 2months, my general busyness in life has just slowed down like I have few projects here and there but I still manage to busy myself somehow. In life we sometimes are busy with everything like it's all just one big noise but as Christians God want us to slow down take time out and just seek his face. In Psalm 46 verse 10 it reads;

Be Still and know that I am God

Something in life we are so busy and we get worked up and worried about stuff that what we need to do instead of saying God where are you the attitude we need to have is exactly what the verse sense just to be still and know he is God of everything your going through, everything your worried about and just know he is in charge of your life. For me the biggest thing that God done this week was tell me to go back to where I left. He also reminded me that Christianity isn't a one man walk but it's a deeper than that and its all based on community. I thought about it loads like I was like NO! not a chance but there were 3 prophetic words about the changing of seasons and feeling uncomfortable about stuff in life but just trusting in God to pull you through.Today was a hard 1st step and felt very uncomfortable but it will get better.